on a side note, I was hurt today. I guess, we'll never really be the same, as hard as I try. Maybe we really come from two different worlds, and though there's nothing wrong with both, we won't really be able to understand and appreciate the other side more than we appreciate ours.

Hi friends, I love you (: 

 I WILL START STUDYING FOR EXAMS FROM TOMORROW (TUESDAY) ONWARDS.

come on tiff go go go !!!

 I realize i have a gift of making strange and retarded stories/movies/things. 

Puffy the Pufferfish
Adam the Apple

I love you both.

In the autumn on the ground,
between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories - whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

I am feeling blissfully happy right now, even though i'm in the midst of a crazy week and a crazy term. Jan is coming to an end, indicating the nearing of many assignment due dates as well as the grand arrival of exams, which comes a few days after cny :( Even though in the worldly sense this totally sucks right now, because there's like a trillion things to do, I feel quite light hearted now! Maybe its because I just completed the final TETL weekly assignment (another thing off the list! YESSS). One more TETL assignment (a big one too) and TETL IS NO MORE YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. 

anyway.

I am sitting at thomson plaza's starbucks. Its a lovely one, and this shall be my new study place (: I think i've grown to love the outdoor air and breeze very much, and I really like the outdoor setting here. heavenly (:

And since i'm in a blissfully happy mood now, I shall attempt something very random. (Actually, I think I can do anything random in any mood, but ANYHOW..) Here's just a short post on what I like best and how I like my life to be structured.

I think I am a person who likes the best of both worlds. I love people, but I also like being alone at times. like now, i'm having my alone time. (: I love interacting with people (well as you all know, I am not exactly quiet). I discovered recently that I enjoy very much being around with people of varying ages. from the young, to the youth, to the young adults (aka older than me). Each has their own rewarding experiences, and I really treasure each one of them. There are some things you can do with youths & young adults but not with kids, and vice versa. With kids, the inner child in me can emerge (HAHA) and simple joyful talk can happen, while with youths and young adults other things, especially sharing can take place. I like both very much (: And I'm really thankful that I have the opportunity to interact with all.

I love being around people. All the random and impromptu meetups with friends, and all the planned and organized ones. I don't regret any of them, because I cherish every moment given to catch up with people. Most of the time, you all make me laugh, and I leave you speechless sometimes when the strange train of thought comes out of my mouth. (seriously, you just haven't reached the cheem level of thinking!) For some, you inspire and encourage me. And hopefully i've done the same..?

Yet I also love being alone. When i wander around town and other random places, and when I find a nice place to sit down, with my journal at hand and good music plugged in. Perhaps this is when I get to wind down, reflect and all that has been happening. You know, its not really me, myself and I. its more of me and Christ in me. This is part of my quiet time. Many a times, this is when I get inspired to do certain things, start certain projects, or re-motivate myself. As I get busier with life, all the more this alone time becomes critical. Don't wanna find myself rushing around doing things and slowly forgetting the reason why i'm doing all this, and what life really is all about. that would be, tragic. ):

so thats how I like to spend my time. my hope this year is to have this balance. It'll keep me healthy socially and emotionally! :D

i like making things too. and giving them to people. though my art is fail in pri & secondary school, maybe its a different story now. Another good thing about having alone time is that you tend to observe things around you more. Maybe that has helped? I don't know. I'm still in the process in discovering this part about myself hee.

actually i think I am quite a boring person. or maybe not. haha. ok no tiffany, get that mindset out of your mind. tsk.

ok in conclusion, though all these things and activities make my life lovely, the one thing that really makes my life complete is having the personal relationship with my Jesus (: Its not about the family and friends (though you all play a large part), or the pasttimes, but about the fact that salvation is here for me, and i've got grace. which brings forth faith, hope and love. These 3 are the utmost important, and also perhapsthe 3 things that drives me in life and the way life is for me. Without Him, I wouldn't be who I am. So thank God for God, and He is the first love, and in all my days, I would want to find myself growing more like Him, continually chasing after Him (: 

back to school work! 

 During the SPSS individual review for last week's speech presentation.

Ms C: Can you say L O V E for me?
Tiffany: (2 seconds silence) L, O, V, E
Ms C: ... NOOO AS IN, the word LOVE!
Tiffany: OH. HAHA. LOVE.
Ms C: Its pronounced as Laaarve

(and then i think about weilin's recount about how Ms Bong made them repeat the word laaaarve many times for something. hahahha!)

Being sick has its effects. hahah. today is a sneefy and coughy day. I mean sniffy! HAHAH. But well, i'm thankful for all the grades so far, especially SPSS. Not perfect, but pretty alright and for some, pretty good! ALL GLORY TO GOD AND GOD ALONE I MUST SAY :) Still, there are many essay results not out yet, not to mention the upcoming exams =(

I miss the westies! dinner soon?! :)

You may be willing to stop being God’s child.
But God is not willing to stop being your Father. - Max Lucado

January is actually a very nice time of the year - climate wise.
Windy, sun doesn't burn with full glory until quite late in the morning, and windy. 

Pity there isn't much time to appreciate it, since jan is the time when poly students battle the last term of the school year. hur hur.

Today I realized again how much I love my school (MGS) and the amount of pride and affection I have towards it. When you hear other current classmates talking about how horrible some of their teachers are, ours aren't that bad. In fact, our teachers are pretty much awesome because of the love and concern they have for us all. And then how the school gives us a whole lot of enrichment lessons and programs we once thought useless, is actually very useful! so current mg girls, REMEMBER THIS! :D Though I didn't much enjoy it, and I half played around during lesson time, I guess some stuff did go in and they are extremely helpful and useful. Because you'll have to face them in your later years of education. Computer class, Speech, Grammar, PW. I have them all now, just named in a cheem-er way. 

And we're very very fortunate and blessed to have ROCs. Where every girl is given a chance to either go overseas or go for job attachments.

And the thing which makes MGS shines out the most of course, is the Christian values and emphasis it holds strongly. Love comes through, and love is what develops character the most.


Hahaha! Though I do rant and lament about the partial horrible life we have in poly (so does lipin and the rest teeeheee), I really wouldn't trade my place in NP HMS CPEE for anything else in the world. Long term friends and I alike both know, that this course is totally for me :D And God probably knows that too. Its just that MG will always be the second home, and no other place of education can ever change that. (:


(first day of internship tmr ackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk)

Okay my flickr is refusing to upload many photos because I have apparently used up my this month's limit. And its only jan 9th! or 10th since its past 12midnight already! :O Nevermind I shall go upload in the other account har har.


So many people have posed this question to me "How was cambodia?" The furthest I always can answer is "oh it was really good" or somewhere along that lines. Somehow, I haven't been able to share properly how exactly I felt towards it. It def was different from my Laos trip - the obvious part is the amount of obvious ministry we had, and the not obvious part would be extremely personal. Maybe thats why I haven't learnt how to say it out to many who have asked me that How-was-the-trip question. 

For the past 2 weeks, i've been having the deep longing of posting up the photos taken here in this livejournal. Maybe as one of those who brought their cameras and made good use of it, and this would be my first time taking shots of people so much (i think i'm trying to improve my photog skills subconsciously!), I feel that a lot of my experiences can be understood better through these photos. Afterall, a picture speaks a thousand words.

I've decided to break up my reflections into several sections. The first would be here, the next would be the next time i'm more boliao and free hee.

THE FACES OF JESUS

I saw the face of Jesus in a little orphan girl
She was standing in the corner on the other side of the world
And I heard the voice of Jesus gently whisper to my heart
Didn't you say you wanted to find me?
Well here I am, here you are -Steven Curtis Chapman's What Now.

This trip, I was constantly surrounded by people. My awesome team people, the missionaries, and the children. For the first time in a really long perhaps, I was surrounded by even more people than I usually am (I don't consider being around people when i'm talking to them online). This may sound like a distraction from God, since my quiet times are all probably thrown away due to ministry. That is not true at all. Firstly, there were the simple quiet times I had.. some in the morning, some at night even though there were bugs (both dead and alive) for company. Next, these were the people whom God spoke through very much to me. The children were the ultimate joy, and they very much the motivation for us to dance nonstop till we dropped, run around like crazy people playing strange and simple games, learn their language in order to better communicate with them, and much more. For me, I learnt to see Jesus in all of them. 

The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' - Matt 25:40

At first it was quite easy to see Jesus in them, to love them. Then things got a bit tiring, and then there was the little scare of the thought of the lice discovered on some of the kids' hair jumping onto ours. Dearest Mag HAD to point out that I played a lot more with the kids than any of the other females. So logically, I would be the worst off cus those who probably played harder with them were the males.. and males can easily shave off their hair.

.. i was more concerned of my mum finding out and banning me from mission trips forever and ever till eternity and by then i dont think we will have mission trips anymore! :(

haha but anyhow, eventually I learnt to deny myself again, and go all out to love them again. And i'm glad to say that I did overcome that hurdle, and loved them like never before again. (: My prayer anyway at the beginning of the trip, was that God to come and completely take over my actions and thoughts.

Enough of words, let the photos do the talking.
And there are many many more. Check FB (:

My conclusion for this segment is that kids ARE a joy, and they retaught me a lesson i've been learning throughout the past year and been telling people. Live, laugh, love. In a simple life, thats all that matters. 

More to come soon! :D my bed is calling me.